STRESS WITH ART

I really should have gotten the hang of this blog thing by now, but honestly I’m still kinda terrified about not getting something right and just making everyone hate me. its irrational I know, but even with my social anxiety getting so much better lately with virtually no panic attacks I still cant get the doubts and fears out of my head. Its just a part of being human I guess, I’m just glad now it doesn’t interfere with my day to day life any more. And moving on to less depressing stuff, lets talk ART.

I’ve had my exam but I cant show you my Art Exam piece because your not allowed legally, but I was quite happy with how it turned out. I did spill a cup of water (showing the world yet again how graceful and elegant of a creature I really am) halfway through me painting but I somehow speed painted and just about finished. Granted I did have about 12 chocolates, two coffees drinks and a crisp that may have helped the process…

But anyway hopefully I get that A ive been working towards. But yeah in the meanwhile here’s one of my side pieces to support my work and raise my marks, ill be done soon hopefully after I somehow do the stems.

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For some reason I feel like I’m going to mess up on them. Aaaand now I should go and study English Literature, I have a two hour exam tomorrow, wish me luck.

Night Guys.

I’m Back!

Well I doubt anybody cares, but hi I’ve been absent from my blog for a while because I had to concentrate on school. But I was getting a bit too little sleep and was generally feeling shitty and so began this piece I’m currently working on:

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Its almost finished and I’m quite surprised at how OK its turning out. I mean I was literally painting for the sake of painting with no plan or anything.
I also brought some non school related books that I’m really excited to read ( after this last week of exams )

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So yes it looks like I may just about survive this. Wish me luck.
Night guys

Sketches

Wow, would you look at that I managed to stay away from the internet for a full week! Boy has it been hectic, but finally mocks have ended thank god, I feel like I did pretty good but I could have done waaaay better in Additional Science. Still have my five hour art exam to go though

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   I sketch I did for my piece, and then kinda strayed from the path and drew some hot people

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Yeah, still works in progress though. It’s not really going on the internet so its not really procrastinating right? I went to an interview at Matthew boulton yesterday…the art teacher who interviewed me was incredibly chill but the maths one said I should do a humanitarian course with sociology and history along with art, no way. You see my school is very lazy with predicted grades and they just gave me a C in everything except my art teacher who actually thought about it and gave me an A. So yeah the math teacher apparently thought I was a “dreamer” and that my expectations were unrealistic… basically she was saying that it seemed to her that I could never do science or math. Of course I felt insulted, I’m not kidding I know this is a clichรฉ but I really have dreamed of being a scientist ever since I was probably 5. Now I know that financially being a Forensic Scientist would be better and I get to help people so that’s a bonus. But here this woman is basically crushing all these dreams, this singular dream I have been working towards all my life. Maybe she feels that if your good at art, that you can’t be good at the sciences? I don’t know, but I’m still pretty mad about the whole affair as she did not even hear me through. One things for sure is that this has made me even more determined and I am so proving her wrong. I’ll get an A, you’ll see. Hopefully the sollihull interview will go better, as well as my JC one.
Night guys.

Me :/

well im 16 year old for starters and currently under the pressure of IGCSEs, i want to get at least 5 As in Physics, Math, IT, RE and Art/English. when i grow up i would like to become a forensic scientist or a college professor hopefully and finally im a bookworm (thats an understatement) and now heres a picture of some food to distract you from the dreadful analogy of myself you might’ve just had to readย ย 7a8651e3-4d47-4529-9bce-31f63ae9444d_m.jpeg

im sorry ill get better at this, honest